Broken

Im so tired of being a soft hearted girl, giving out chances everytime. This has been happening for the past 3 years. Its been so constant, Im seriously immune to it. Sometimes I hate myself for being too nice? Yet I'll choose to obey God and forgive. But even when I forgive, the same thing will happen again, then i've to forgive again.

Today, my whole mind has only been thinking about the wifey article I read on the way to church today. I thank God that shrub sent it to me. I've to admit, I gave in to it, I accepted it, I digested it, I surrendered. It was so hard to not ponder over it. & I realised, my life isnt about pleasing people anymore, its pleasing the one who created me. The person who died on this very day, for me. None of my friends will.

Somehow, God decided to once again tell me that he put people like jeanette in my life, to keep me going? She did a really sweet thing for me today! Pictures in another post sometime? But, I was super touched by what she did. Cause this week Im completely worn off, in every aspect, physically, mentally but im still spiritually strong i'd say?

Yep, so, thank you dearest shu jingggg ♥