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I have been soooooo unwilling to go for camp & wasnt looking forward to camp due to the judgement of others. Someone told me I was shameless to be a leader. I was definitely discouraged and didn't like that my actions/leadership during camp would be judged by the person around me But came the pre camp devotionals, it kinda got my vibe back for camp but it died down before camp. The night before camp, I just prayed (I havent done that in a long time) I had conversations with God- trying to give Him reasons for not going to camp. But He reminded me again, who am I really doing this for? & this teaches me a very important lesson.
So, my camp group was extremely strange cause people will have their own conversations and the rest of the group will just stare blankly. I didnt know what to do -.- I just felt super useless! But as the days passed, we set our goals and our group opened up and shared from the first day! Wowwww. you know how hard it is to share 'what they want to get out of camp' and why!
Each of them had their own personal sharing. I was moved. Moved far beyond what I thought I would! & So the camp went on, and to my surprise, leaders altar calling. Indeed the message was so....? HUHHHHH. But when it came to altar calling, it was like, all the little bits he said came to my mind and it all fitted in.
I have been struggling so much to pretend im fine with all the words/things/comments flying above my head. How people have just based me on the things that this one person said. I didnt want to come for YM because of this, I thought of completely moving to TSS & I was the first person Pst Daniel prayed for. I was blown away. Truly, I dont know how. God? Pst Daniel said: Stop putting those walls infront of you because of what people say, be who you really are. If you are broken, be broken, it doesnt matter. Stop pretending you're okay when you're not. I was just: :O :O :'( :'''''''( He told me, its okay that you're weak. I was just wondering, out of all the other things he can pray about, he prays/tells me this. Its like hitting the nail on the right spot of my heart. In this case, he was really putting a plaster on my heart.
After that, I prayed, people prayed for me. God's people are indeed moving. How imperfect we all are to work for our perfect God. It really refreshed me, and know what im supposed to do.
& on the last night of camp, the energy the Philo's had to continue playing and playing and playing and I could see the spirit of God just moving in all of us. Nothing was hindering anyone! & who can ever make one's tired/restless heart alive and free and energetic again? God!
But look how camp has been planned that Plenary session was about sharing the gospel and how to share it and I never knew LOGOS was doing how to share God in a creative way, and I didnt know what led me to choose that workshop but indeed God has prompted me to be His light at where Iam. Im definitely equipped with what I have to share and how to do it. Though I cant answer some questions, I have learnt that, My actions speak of God's word, through these, they'd come to know and learn about Christ.
I really thank whoever doing the leaders thingy, to not doubt the capability of any leader. When Ben asked me to be a leader, it was my spiritual high of my life. Now, its different, but God really worked the group out, everyone encountered/experienced God. & im glad it happened this way and be part of it.
Thank you for reading through this really wordy testimonial. & thank you all, once again, everyone in YM's leadership, Camp Comm to make this and facilitate in camp. God moved, and He will continue moving in all our lives.
Hope this blesses you, it is definitely a joy to share such an experience! Also, amazing people from the 12 stones ministry put up a wrap up video of camp!
Let our lives be an anthem of Your love
May our actions reflect God's love, where ever and whenever :)
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