The only right thing is to carry on.

Last night I was just checking my EBCA1 assignment & I've this strong gut feeling I'm gonna fail it. Then I asked myself a whole lot of questions which seem to take forever to find the answers. My happiness level was really alltimelow last night.

Just last week I just completed my submissions, but here iam again rushing against time to meet deadlines. Some nice person also needed to ask me on formspring along the lines of, you seem happy, how can your life ever be in a mess? Come on, no one will be happy forever, you need to know that, I can seem happy to you but you don't know what's really happening. If you haven't been those that I've been talking to about my problems I don't think youve a right to comment about me being happy and all.

& another person said 'you're trying to gain people's sympathy' im sorry what!?! ME? I'm trying to gain people's sympathy. You obviously don't know me well at all. I don't even like troubling people, let alone making them sympathize me! If people even do sympathize me, that's cause they know how I feel, sympathy is not something you gain. Why not trying to gain some empathy instead?

Ohwell, just sucking it up, moving on with life. Cause i dont have time to entertain such.
TSS today (: & I did find my answer aft waking up this morning (: God has a purpose for me.

blessed weekends guys!

Dont think so

My life is in a whole mess now, but i personally think im not that weak cause Im holding onto my beliefs. & please dont go thinking my life is awesome, and dont go around telling people my life is awesome cause it isnt. And honestly, its the opposite. But God's gracious and He'd grant me strength in anytime of need!

Pile of work

Hello! Its update time, before I get lazy and forget what I did for the week :)

Yesterday, we had our project meeting at Np! hehehe, mega trespassers srsly :B & we headed to Ourspace to get some work done. Ended project meeting and met shrubz for a little while at J8. I was soooo sad I couldnt find my ballet books ): siannnnnn. Hmmmmpfffzzzz. Headed to work after that ;) pretty much enjoyed work yesterday, working w Clara again was good & the shop is sooo neat now (Y) (Y) (Y)

Today, school? then went over to trespass Np again. hehehehe, had our teatime @ Makan Place then we rushed through our EB meeting. Cheryl left and we stayed back to further discuss? Super annoyed when things are just not properly planned :B Met ezra & thomas to pass them their belated birthday cards! hehehehe, & bumped into charm @ ourspace!! Aahaaaa, was super happy to see her after such a long time :)

& anyway, we stonned around Np for awhile and I headed to town to walk & met weiyan for dinner? :D kbbqq @ tanjong pagar! He's like some little kid la, must cut food for him and all! knowing him for already errr. p5 till now, thats like 7 years, still the same weiyan. He's going back to aussie this week already ): ): ): ): ohwell, we'll meet again july! heh yepp, we went to bugis aft that! Got some shoes and a top cause my flats are srsly dying on me already. So i threw this pair away ;p

Back@home now, & i've got so much work to do. I've to say, i do have pretty nice classmates! & also, there's this dude im my project group that is scared of me :O hahahha, very funny la. Well i'll say, im really blessed, cause i've got a right group of friends ;)

Looking forward to 2nd May's outing w the stc girls! yayyyyyy & also dinner with my dearest bestie is finally coming up! whoohoo & dinner with nette this sat! :D

Blessed with friends

Hello! So... promised the post about the dinner with jeanette. Which was on gd friday ;)

Had work and all then went to meet her at cine for dinner. We decided to give Raindrops a try after idk who raved about it.
So, we reached, and there wasnt seats ): Jeanette also passed me my surprise, which really made me really really happy. Rmb her mint chocolate, aye if you dont, I fell in love with it when I ate it at her place and so.. she bought a pack for me! I was soooo happy & she made a motivational pack for me too.

How sweet right. Many lovesssss <3 

So, we sat outside. And yknow whats the suayest thing? Some bird just needed to shit on me!!!! Like whutzzzzz ): & we havent even ordered our food yet lor ):

I was like quite unhappy about the bird shit & I couldnt carry on eating thinking more shit will drop into my food, when it comes. So after much persuasions, the nice kind waiter allowed us to move into the air conditioned place. Phewzzzzzz. 

hehee, i just ultra loved my lace top that day 

Grandma got it from Europe for me & when she saw that i was wearing this, she was like, i like this! so cool ah so cool. ehheeh how cuteeee

Jeanette will buy me this patterned tissue

& our portions were pretty small for such a price! But oh well, worth the try. We headed to the Wtflea which was at *scape's carpark and got really good buys :D nette got her OPI polishes for 10/each :O :O & i got my ribbon high waist shorts which i've been hunting around for ^^ Yay! We walked over to 313 to window shop and nette left after, it was a pretty short one this time cause it was at night & I was pretty tired ): so was she? 

left to meet theeee fellow teo at Liat. Which was a total failed meet up cause liat was crazily packed, I couldnt study and like we barely could find seats. That night was also rlly warm ): cut the long story short, I typed out some english work and cuz dropped me home ;)

Work @ Sogurtttt 

& this was work on saturday w bren! super happy+stress when i work w her though hehehehehe. but mani mani loves!

her compat is like superrrbb quality!

& the sogurt cam is finally @ usq!!!

Work work work.

Helloooo! I need to take some time off work and type words instead of equations -__- 

Today has been a good day. Apparently, the 830ym plan failed, cause i overslept ): Ah, anyway, they had small group, so it was kinda good i didnt go, cause ill end up leaving early. So i cabbed to ps to meet weiyan for breakfast ;) & then I headed for 11pnp service & seeing familiar faces while walking towards parkmall srsly makes you feel super home-d. & came to my mind that i'll never regret shifting back to Wesley ;) This easter, daddy wasnt around too. Which was pretty saddddd ): cause we usually go to church tgth & have lunch after that. But anyway, the independent girl decided to study aft service! Successful mugging I must say. Now, I just have to finish my mathematical analysis reports. Gonna take a break from all my work tmr & tuesday will be our first project meeting by yours truly, the project leader who is blur like sotong ): 

So blessed to have classmates like yx, xz,wj to help me (: (: & they're always asking, you need help or not? help you la, so you can sleep early. But as usual, I reject help    >< whats new.

Cant believed my palpitations came back cause of my workload ): this is so bad ;{ & i srsly hate it.. & in times like this, I forgot about Him. & thats why i get crumbled so easily. Shall stop this habit soon. Ohwell, I'll learn :) at least im conscious of it right?

Jesus is alive!

Oh happy day, happy day!

You wash my sins away

Do this, in remembrance of me

Broken

Im so tired of being a soft hearted girl, giving out chances everytime. This has been happening for the past 3 years. Its been so constant, Im seriously immune to it. Sometimes I hate myself for being too nice? Yet I'll choose to obey God and forgive. But even when I forgive, the same thing will happen again, then i've to forgive again.

Today, my whole mind has only been thinking about the wifey article I read on the way to church today. I thank God that shrub sent it to me. I've to admit, I gave in to it, I accepted it, I digested it, I surrendered. It was so hard to not ponder over it. & I realised, my life isnt about pleasing people anymore, its pleasing the one who created me. The person who died on this very day, for me. None of my friends will.

Somehow, God decided to once again tell me that he put people like jeanette in my life, to keep me going? She did a really sweet thing for me today! Pictures in another post sometime? But, I was super touched by what she did. Cause this week Im completely worn off, in every aspect, physically, mentally but im still spiritually strong i'd say?

Yep, so, thank you dearest shu jingggg ♥

Thursday

Hi guys! (o__o)

Yep, my eyes are literally like that :/ I've been so busy and lacking so much sleep that i felt tired at 10pm ;/ was really really damn tired. This week has been a super tiring week for me. Busy with exams/submissions/work and catching up with friends. & Im really busy that, i havent met up with my dearest bestie. Its really pretty sad. Like my free days of the week is like thurs/fri. next week's already packed & like can you imagine when i start bmc, im gonna get so packed a week that, i'll barely have time to breathe. This is srsly no joke. 3 hours of school a day can be damn slack to you. But, its killing me slowly :/

Anyhow, I finally got time to catch up w shrub tonight! We had Modesto's pizzas for dinner! & it was prettayeeee good. & my anchovies were amazangggggg. It was a good decision to add anchovies. Was pretty glad, he can be a 'role model' in certain aspects *coughscoughs* Ahhh, we had alot of fun together, being annoying and mean to each other -__- what nice friends are we. Gotta say, God blessed me with you though ;)

Its good friday tmr, service, work, study, meet jeanette, & probably coffee w the cousins?

Amazing love, how can it be, that you my king would die for me.

Sunday @ Raffles Marina

Sunday was a pretty amazing day, as usual right ;)

& I had the ultimate opportunity to spent it with cheyenne ;) We've never ever spent such a long time out alone, like just the 2 of us before (: Hehhehe, so it was a good time of 'bonding' i'd say.
After getting 4 hours of sleep @ swissotel, we got up and checked out. Cousin sent me to chey's church place and we took a cab from there ;) Thank God for such loving cousins who drive me around <3 oh such love!

And we cabbed to my place, changed and did our hair and vanity session so to speak?
We realised we didnt have lunch, so we ate at home. DUCK RICE. OMYY GRANDMA'S DUCK RICE WAS AWESUMMMZZZ. We chiong-ed out of the house straight after lunch.

Cabbed to the furthest part of sg. Tuas~ super super far.

Then we went to do our make up, which in the end smudged cause of the crazy hot weather. Ran through the program and all. The company guys were really nice to us, they were mostly Caucasians & they kept encouraging us. super nice guys.

& chey & I played scissorpaperstone to figure who would present the bouquet. I lost, so i did it & I swear, i thought it would be honorable BUT, the sun was dehydrating me+sweat was bathing me!!! Couldnt wait to get back to where chey was & I was like CHEYENEEEEE!! ): then.. we camwhored more!

We had dinner tgth after and we both loved the mushroom + soup. Was like the best things ever for the day & btw, fyi, there were drunk guys disturbing us. It was quite okay at first, but after awhile it got pretty... out of hand. Srsly.... But thank god that we made a few friends with the company guys and they helped us ;) They were a really nice bunch. They thought chey & I were really 'garang' & chey looks 22! HAHAHHA, for once.. im not 'old'

Thats all Im gonna blog about. The rest will be on fb when i've the time to.

Im so stressed with school work and all that, Im gonna spend the whole day studying/mugging tmr.

I swearrrr, Im gonna die drowning myself in a whole lot of paper ;/

 & bef i go..

Cheyyyyeeeneee, 

its been a joy knowing you & getting to know you better. 

When we both reminisce we never fail to argue about how i was very dao & I msged you sorry lor.

Which idiot who stares, says sorry!?!?! hahahah, anyway, thanks for the friendship & being a listening ear at times! :D We'll meet for shopping, when... the time comes ;) & we'd get you a blazer, so you'd look smarter.

Hehhehhe, lotsoflove ! 

He turns 20 ;)

Like in the previous post, It was dearest cousin's birthday & really had an awesome spending it surrounding guys!! :D A change for sure, compared to the usual all-girls party :B

The cousins ;)

High classly, they had twg tea there. Wahhh, was damn awesome. 

& like bvalgari brand shampoo and lotion and what not -.-

So trev&I had some tea past midnight, which felt insanely good ;D

A night w people you usually wont spent with

Hello from swiss. Its been a great night so far. Seeing ahemmm, the birthday boy drunk & like all his friends playing around w him, since he's drunk :) Its been really awesome cause I finally got to drink. Vodka + redbull, vodka + limejuice. Srsly, awesome shitttt & like i dont have the 'flush face' syndrome. Whoohoo & im still sober enough to blog :D Met a few of his friends & honestly, totally not used to be being surrounded by like 20+ over guys. But it has been an eyeopener I must say! & these guys are pretty nice aft getting to know them better. Super funny bunch of guys. So many pictures and fb album will be extremely private on fb. Yeappp, will most a few when im back blogging.

On another note, gonna have a blast of a day tmr with cheyenne wan. Omggg, I srsly cant wait. I CAN FINALLY USE MY TOPSHOP BLUSHER LA. wthhhh, bought and havent used. I hope my make up skills still can pass.

& once again, God has been so gracious to give such a day :)
BLESSED PALM SUNDAY GUYS!

Friday

On friday, met jeanette after school & we went to get some stuff done in school ;D
I was a nice friend and walked to *Scape to get her nail polish and all!

& cause we shared a drink.. something happened. & she was damn happy she wasnt the cause of it. Im damn lazy to explain but ITS MY FAULT -.- 

& 5 YEARS OF BULLSHIT TGTH. We'll be awesome friends 4everrr

Headed to aunty steph's place for cg dinner. Was super awesommmmmeee :> She has a new puppy & asked if i wanted one, WAS DAMN TEMPTED TO SAY YES. But the poor puppy wouldnt have enough of my attention as Im already having issues even giving attention to human beings -___- So... decided not to, but it was gooooddddddd damn cute ):

& LOOK WHO'S BACK!!! I MISSED YOU CWY!!!

WE ARE DEFINITELY GONNA CATCH UP SOON. I SRSLY MEAN SOON ):

Brought the charger cause my phone batt was dying. I was damn shock when LT didnt have electricity. 

But luckily it worked aft awhile. & Also, loving the baggggg mommzieee passed ;)

Oh, see that damn ugly green bottle? My friggin tumbler stinks like wiskey+soda from that night. 

Sanitizing in progress

Met dearest skysky today ;) Cause we havent met for so long. Hahhaha, wahlao. She's srsly full of bullshit la. Its been long since I laughed at such lame jokes? We can laugh over POA? Was teaching her POA & then cause we bought didnt know our work, we laugh. Damn win la. Totally reminiscing sec 3 days where I thought her poa until i can puke blood.  

LOOK@HER I THINK IM SO CUTE FACE

We had pretty good dinner after that. Ordered alot of food and paid only $14/person. 

Food was damn shiok but sadly skysky had flu :/ so she barely could taste the good food. hmmm.

We walked to papermarket too, & guess what. I bought like a million things again -.--------

Someone please hold my atm card please? hehehehehhe.

Its been another good day (: Thank God for such people in my life cracks me up.

Its that NAFA? noooo.. its fana. -_-

Where I left off

Monday was pretty amazing :)

After school, mom came to fetch me from school! The comfort of travelling in the car, was pure satisfactory :)

Went to fetch sister from school & headed to the new condo to check the reno works. hehehe, the place was quite nice. & it faces the pool :B hehhhh.

Back to kovan to check out the babes @ home ;) pure cuteness, never fails to brighten my day. 

Rushed out of the house when it started to pour. Went to meet the Moreno's in town! It was a really good meet up i've to say. Even it though it was a short one, I kinda missed ian and it was a great opportunity seeing the rest of the cousins ;) Raymond looks like jerome. Tskkk, cant take it :x Shopped around and also bought some clips cause it was screwed fringe day. My fringe is getting more screwed by the days. Spells hair cut time. Should I dye my hair already :/ sighhhhh.

Rushed again to go meet cheyenne & the rest @ bugis. Swear, i really rush the whole day okay ): siannnn maxxxx. hurrrrr. walked over to Lasalle for dinner. It was pretty good, but i told myself to stick to my diet plan ;)

Had a good time catching up w joel too, it's been damn long since I saw him & my last memory of him was... MY ARMS WIDE OPEN.. & he didnt wanna hug me. cause.. of the pole -.- gr. what a nice friend. kiddingzzz. Oh oh, I ordered drinks and like the waiter was like, are you guys over 18? ahhaha, wah for once someone thinks im old  young horrrr ^^ hahaha. & got some beer for joel & vodka+coke for me ;) felt goooood though! once in awhile kinda thing.

IAM LEGAL!

This picture is epicccc win, cause idk why chey's holding her tummy.

 All of us like still looked so cool & didnt bother about her :O we're such nice friends hur.

So, we ended off the night w the drinking game app. which was damn useful & also pictures ;) 

Love you guys plenty mannn. Company was aweeeesum!