Cause He made a way

As I tumblr-ed; today wasn't the best day to start the week with. Having a paper later today and all that fumbling thoughts last night. It was really insanely crazy. I just sat by my table reading the driving course book. which I've never read since I started yup! That's how scared I was, and I was actually trembling while trying to write notes.
I really thank God hmmm, yx was like trying to calm me down non stop :) like he always does, even during the smallest problems! I'm thankful. & people keeping me in their prayers.

Reached BBDC & the rain was really really really heavy. Really pouring so bad that I ran into the school drenched and I caught a cold too -_- and that made my trembling worst. Still v v v v v scared & during my warm up, I couldnt park both vertical and parallel. I mounted the kerb once "." I was just telling myself, k be prepared to fail Esther.... When on the roads I just put my chin on the steering wheel while waiting for the lights to turn green.

I was having this conversation w God.
Oh dear God, why does it need to rain so heavily today. And it's not a drizzle it's POURINGGGG!!!!! & I looked at the skies before going back to the TP's office thinking, let God take control. I CAN'T EVEN CONTROL THE WEATHER! Only He can. And I just kept talking to Him. (it really really helps) & then came the terrifying part. Testees from the prev slot came up and like there was just this massive scolding from like nearly every tester.. It was soooo demoralizing... I just hid my face into my palms.

And, time for test! Really thankful that it was nearly the same as my warm up route (for circuit) and vertical parking was like near perfect. When I parked I was like THANK GOD!!!! Parallel parking wasn't parallel -.- and I rlly couldn't tell why. (& at the moment I thought I was gonna fail) But praise God, went out of the circuit without doing slope nor e brake! And out to the roads. Teck Whye = turn right. Bb = turn left. Instructor was like keep left, turn left. Instantaneously, I was like, wheeeehehehhehehehe hehehee yayeeeee yayeeee.

I was so thankful, so grateful. And it was a pretty good route :) no hazards, not much traffic. & I'm truly blessed, all the time. Through my successes, through my failures, He has a reason for everything.

This's a really long post & I shall be off to my notes once again. But I truly learn today that God is sovereign, God holds me, He holds my life, my plans, my results. & I've to trust in Him :)

Countdown

Soooo tomorrow's my TP (I'm scared like crappppp) I'm really praying hard for an easy test route and also a nice tester. Whatever it is, I've to remember God plans everything for a reason. The day after, would be our first paper. I'm scared again. This month has been nothing but fear. Studying but idk if it's going into my brain. I hope it does :| But I truly find comfort that God brings comfort to those who fear and their hearts will rest in Him. Such a simple reminder for me. I need to study hard, really need to. Life isn't easy, that's sad. But this is life. And we're all called to live this really annoying frustrating life. However, it'd be better when we find joy in it. & I'm gonna try doing that.

ONE WEEK TO FREEDOMMMMMMMMMMMMM

22nd November

Fallen, but i'll get back up soon.

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Indeed a beautiful way to start a special date :) such a happy girl with a happy heart. He seriously knows his ways of cheering me up! :D im blessed. It has been a long Saturday but I'm going to bed a happy lil girl. Gooooooooodnight ;)

Breathing Space

Never knew that you'd go to such extents. I guess I'm just standing amazed and just keep questioning myself about the things that you do and the way you behave. But at the end of the day, there's nothing much I can do.

Im just grateful, that i've always people by my side, watching me fall, helping me get back up. Its the people around me that helps me move forward. I guess God sends people to do the physical things doesn't he.

This week's gonna be another really great week + gotta start studying for exams.

Im thankful :)

Up up and awayyyy~

I dont know whats up with the title. But probably it's cause im still up at 4am doing ppt slides and happily procrastinating ^^ hehehehe. & our presentation got brought forward by 5 days..... whutttt. What to do ? deal with it. I've been more than grateful for the things that has happened in my life. The people around me that just makes me smile, gives me a bigger reason to why I shouldn't be upset. Im so thankful, so blessed. Thank You dear God :)

Oh how much I really miss my IJ blue and STC ):

Kkkkk, back to ppt. 

The Weekend

Its been a week. Another long, tiring, emotionally weak, week. So week, yet so strong cause I've been blessed by friends.

Friday

Finally had out batam trip reunion on Friday night :) & had a really good night just laughing with the usual bunch. & Oh how much I really miss the days where bea will budge into my room and pull my blanket away to get me up. Sw will pull open the curtains so the sun will shine right into my face. Tsk. But im ever so blessed for that company, to just drink, eat, laugh with.

Saturday was really really a crazy day. 

I had this conversation with God on fri night while getting my testimony points up. It went somewhere along the lines of, 

Must I really do this? am i advertising TSS?

So i emailed some of the people in the comm & they encouraged me more. 

(felt super insecure cause I only had 2 days to prepare this)

& then I was rlly rlly scared of doing all these. But, aft the first practice, people came up to me telling me that it was alright. Im so so so grateful. Even aft service, I see how I've truly blessed people through the way God has blessed me. 

Blessed to, bless. Im so thankful for how it turned out :)

Sunday

Had brunch with Devy this morning :) Indeed time to refill myself with some of her rubbish. Had brunch @ Epicurious. Shared the Epic breakf, which wasnt epic at all, neither was it worth it. We ordered Phad Thai since we weren't full. Proper catch up session, every since indo (according to her) & just like all other days, she attempted to pay the bill... while i went to the toilet but.. 1. she lacked $2 & 2. I caught her before she could do anything uh. Hahahha, I always win. 

& the plan for her 21st bday? 21 PACKS OF INDOMEEE FOR THE INDO PRINCESS :)