Little ones turn 3

Wahhhh, im not used to the new way blogger looks. For awhile I was like... erm whatz happening -.-!!

Pace of submissions have been going fine. Just fine, but quite glad that we managed to clear everything by tonight. Only left with macro submission, therefore im playing the procrastinating game still. Im supposed to finish it tonight though. & ISB presentation on thurs. 2nd last presentation of DMS!!! Yesssss :> :> Cant believe graduation is sooooo soon. Thank God for seeing me through the last 13 months

Anyway, today the 2 little ones turn 3. How fast time flies, I still remember 3 years ago they were such tiny little babies just learning to blabber and chuckle. Now they can have a conversation with me, talking non stop and telling me about what they'll do when they wake up. like brushing teeth, bathing, then wear their shoes and sit on the car seat in mummy's car. Amazing isn't it. 

Was supposed to have a bigbig party for them at One Degree 15 @ Keppel but it was fully book. So we'll be having Rei's 8th there instead. That place is such beauty! Cant wait for Aug (only this part, not the uol part) So yeah, it was a small affair @ grandma's :) We didnt even get to take family pictures cause they were too excited with the cake. But yeah, meimei nearly burnt her hair while blowing the candles. So funny!! before we could sing, they started poking their fingers into the beautiful cake. 

Anyway, this is the $133 cake i hunted for, for 1.5months ^^!! its quite cute right, they were both so fascinated, so was Rei. & Rei is gonna get the $450 castle cake for her 8th birthday.

Went home, and headed out to CCAB to run actually take pics. I was wearing my dress & it was crazily hot! Quite happy with today's set of pictures, even though still trying to figure out the new cam :)

Thank God for the beauty of these 2 darlings + Rei. 

They've turned my life around, and made me see things differently. 

So, 1 month till i turn 19. Im really dreading it. &13 months till i turn 20. 

That is a super duper horrifying number, SERIOUSLY. 

Identity.

I guess going for TSS when not serving is a good idea sometimes :) thankful for such a beautiful saturday. Thankful how I got to meet my new coursemate, Ronda Tan & talk nonsense with her && also invade shrubs's LT and scream like crazy people + embarrassing him :p The rain wasn't very light today, but thank God it went down by the time we reached town :) Went to Bible House with Ronda. Something new!

Sermon was about identity today, kinda left me in a lot of thought. Sometimes I wonder if im being someone im expected of being. Like sometimes i'm 'this-person' because of an expectation on me. I think that's why i've been so quiet the whole evening during dinner. I've far too much to rant in this blog post. 

I think also come to a point that i've accepted the loss of 2 friends this year. Carla & Devy. Funny how both of them are similar and not in a few ways. Honestly, I've fought hard, I've tried my best you know. Not everyone knows, people close to me do. Jeanette knows. Yaoxian knows. God knows. My heart knows. I've given more than 100% of myself to both of them. You know it's like when someone walks out of your life, you can't really do anything to stop them? Yeah, I guess i've let them all go. So.. yes 2 friends down. But im sure i've enough :)

All these has taught me to appreciate the people around me like people who have been truly standing alongside with me like yx, nette, jo, sam & bea :) such precious darlings they are.

My heart is overwhelmed, i don't think in a good way. But it would get better soon, im sure. 

I hold onto the strength i have in Christ. 

We all go through seasons, its my down season now. Rushing CAs, meeting deadlines. 

thankfully yx is being really extremely helpful for ISB. 

He's doing all the web design, the rest of us just researches. 

*picture updates in another post, not tonight :) 

You've conquered the grave

Visited Great grandparents & granddad's resting place this morning to pay our respects. Trying to hold back tears, remembering the months he was fighting for his life. But I know you're in a better place, dancing with the Lord waiting for the rest of us to join in the heavenly feast in heaven :)

Strange that we didnt managed to go to church for Easter service, but its all in the heart. School's in, not out. This sem's tough, yeah I say that every sem. Its my last semester & it has been one year. One year doing all these, one year seeing people come and go, one year working with people who don't do work, one year wouldn't have passed without the strength God has given me. Last sem, last lap for DMS at least. Then, I really need to give myself a good good break before I literally give my life to school (best example? Isaac) Hahha, UOL like really no life. Oh well, I know I run this race with Him beside me.

Let's get the assignments going~ 

Holy Week

Watching it wouldn't be pleasurable at all. Similar scenes were played during TSS on Saturday and there was this very sour/bitter feeling in me. I had so many things going in the wrong direction, I had friends who betrayed me or left me, But ultimately, He went through the same thing. 

Hope this leaves you in thoughts as the week approaches Good Friday & may it be our prayer to be led to the cross.

Lead me to the cross

Where Your love poured out