Identity.

I guess going for TSS when not serving is a good idea sometimes :) thankful for such a beautiful saturday. Thankful how I got to meet my new coursemate, Ronda Tan & talk nonsense with her && also invade shrubs's LT and scream like crazy people + embarrassing him :p The rain wasn't very light today, but thank God it went down by the time we reached town :) Went to Bible House with Ronda. Something new!

Sermon was about identity today, kinda left me in a lot of thought. Sometimes I wonder if im being someone im expected of being. Like sometimes i'm 'this-person' because of an expectation on me. I think that's why i've been so quiet the whole evening during dinner. I've far too much to rant in this blog post. 

I think also come to a point that i've accepted the loss of 2 friends this year. Carla & Devy. Funny how both of them are similar and not in a few ways. Honestly, I've fought hard, I've tried my best you know. Not everyone knows, people close to me do. Jeanette knows. Yaoxian knows. God knows. My heart knows. I've given more than 100% of myself to both of them. You know it's like when someone walks out of your life, you can't really do anything to stop them? Yeah, I guess i've let them all go. So.. yes 2 friends down. But im sure i've enough :)

All these has taught me to appreciate the people around me like people who have been truly standing alongside with me like yx, nette, jo, sam & bea :) such precious darlings they are.

My heart is overwhelmed, i don't think in a good way. But it would get better soon, im sure. 

I hold onto the strength i have in Christ. 

We all go through seasons, its my down season now. Rushing CAs, meeting deadlines. 

thankfully yx is being really extremely helpful for ISB. 

He's doing all the web design, the rest of us just researches. 

*picture updates in another post, not tonight :)